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Sew the Seams
04:42
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SEW THE SEAMS
she was the homecoming, prom queen, couple time pageant winner
Hollywood dreams, anyone could see the passion in her
anyone on God’s green earth would’ve been happy with her
but something snapped with in her
she was carryin the weight of the world tryin to be perfect
overtime that weight builds up, now it’s a burden
suddenly that weights too much, it starts hurtin
then that weight just can’t wait – she’s gotta purge it
swears its only one time, promises it won’t last
but dammit if it don’t feel good to get control back
dammit if it don’t beat the hell out of some prozac
but if she looks so good then why’s she so sad?
cuz the world eats at her she won’t eat back
literally starving for attention but she sees fat
we don’t see that, we think she’s beautiful
she thinks if she could lose a few we’d love her like they used to do
but we don’t know about the hurt in her heart
about spending every day on the verge of a fall
it’s like she’s livin in the sky but never heard of the stars
like she’s fightin for her life but never learned how to spar
we don’t know
we can’t judge
we’re so close
but can’t touch
it’s just life
it’s like that…
…and we don’t know about it
[so she looks up in the sky sayin]
the world goes round in circles [it goes round, it goes round]
it all falls square on me [and then it all falls, and then it all falls]
and I try to find some peace of mind
but all I find are broken pieces
and I can’t sew the seams
his mama’s pride and joy, went to college on a scholarship
god fearin, god bless’em doin what the bible says
stayed away from all the drama and the partying…
…until his world started fallin in
he heard the good die young
never wanted to sin, and then the good died young
first his girl in a car crash, his brother in the war
his father lost his battle with the Devil in His liquid form
now he feels a little scorned, like the world is spittin on’em
everybody near’em’s disappearing, God don’t listen to him
so he throws a shot back, wishin he could stop that
but misery loves company and he ain’t even got that
lookin for comfort at the bottom of the bottle
as if the sorrow wasn’t hard enough to swallow
alone his soul burns slow, he wants to let the world know
but they could never understand how much he hurts tho
cuz they don’t know about the permanent scars
about praying every day he could return to the start
about livin life like he’d been deserted by God
watchin everybody die just to learn who they are
we don’t know
we can’t judge
we’re so close
but can’t touch
it’s just life
it’s like that…
…and we don’t know about it
[so he looks up in the sky sayin]
the world goes round in circles [it goes round, it goes round]
it all falls square on me [and then it all falls, and then it all falls]
and I try to find some peace of mind
but all I find are broken pieces
and I can’t sew the seams
I’m hanging by a thread and I want you to know
that I quit caring long ago
and I can’t hide behind these walls…
…watch me fall
[so we look up in the sky sayin]
the world goes round in circles [it goes round, it goes round]
it all falls square on me [and then it all falls, and then it all falls]
and I try to find some peace of mind
but all I find are broken pieces
and I can’t sew the seams
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2. |
Future Celebrity
03:39
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FUTURE CELEBRITY
Your boy been fly since his very first second on earth
Guess that's why I keep referrin to myself in the third person
I get so high I can't remember the words
to the verse that I wrote, oh right, I don't write nothin
Now everywhere I go they be like "look at that dogg!
so much swag he could put it to a pussycat doll"
I just give a little cat call, put her on the catwalk
Loosen up her buttons it ain't nothin to a rap star
and they're sayin I'ma mess up my album
if I can't stop my obsession with how to
get to hollywood get the respect and the power
How else am I supposed to get with Jessica Alba?
Or Kristin Cavalieri, Halle Berry, Eva Mendez
Take'em all back to school, teach'em sex ed
tell'em they gon' have to prove who got the best head
she gon' be my half of two until my deathbed
No I can't be stopped
I got 15 minutes of fame and you won't take'em away
No I can't be stopped
I got 15 minutes of fame and you won't take'em away
No No No No No No No
I can't be saved...cuz I'm a future celebrity
No No No No No No No
I won't be saved
cuz I'm a future celebrity
Well I just got my apartment covered in red carpet
I'm feeling like I'm a star whenever I walk across it
I could be a star sleepin on a park bench
I could be a star if I was eatin from the garbage
Catch me at the bar I'm probly leavin with your daughter
She goes to my apartment -- she ain't leavin til tomorrow
see me when I rock, call it Jesus on the water
cuz they can't believe what they're seein in my aura
born to me a star -- born with a big head
down to get married to some model I just met
down to get divorced before three, and the next day
get even more fame by releasing the sex tape
I don't give a damn what the priests or the press say
As long as everybody cop my CD and press play
until I've been banned in every one of the red states
then I'ma keep doing my thing (Cuz I'm a future celebrity)
No I can't be stopped
I got 15 minutes of fame and you won't take'em away
No I can't be stopped
I got 15 minutes of fame and you won't take'em away
No No No No No No No
I can't be saved...cuz I'm a future celebrity
No No No No No No No
I won't be saved
cuz I'm a future celebrity
The paparazzi wanna watch me gettin my coffee from starbucks
You think I'll be givin a damn? Nah I'm gettin them star bucks
I'm talkin about the millions --
type of money that'll have Christina Millian sleepin with me, gettin off
that'll cop the crib on an Ibiza beach
I'm flyin in first class, never the cheaper seats
I stopped goin to church, I'm letting my Visa preach
so even my Jesus piece is wearing a Jesus piece
forgive me, Lord, I'm livin on easy street
I got America's Top Model tellin me she's a freak
my girlfriend got a girlfriend and she's a freak
and they're both fightin for time in between my sheets
but I'ma Rich Boy she gon' have to prove to me that she want it
if I'ma (I'ma) THROW THE D ON IT!
I know you're hatin you should let it be
K-Nice remember the name (cuz I'm a future celebrity)
No I can't be stopped
I got 15 minutes of fame and you won't take'em away
No I can't be stopped
I got 15 minutes of fame and you won't take'em away
No No No No No No No
I can't be saved...cuz I'm a future celebrity
No No No No No No No
I won't be saved
cuz I'm a future celebrity
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3. |
What We've Become
04:01
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WHAT WE’VE BECOME
He was exposed at a young age
To the ills of the real world its rough ways
Through the media billboard and front page
Now he don't know if its real or he's just crazy
He's already seen three wars and one hangin
seen disease and pills for the contagions
seen Katrinas that kill boys and young babies
he don't know who to fear but he is afraid
so he hides away and builds a fortress to save him from the danger
and seals the walls so he never sees their faces
until their gone or there’s angels in their places
but still they call, they beg him to escape it
but nah he won't come out he's scared of the fresh air
he's never gonna step outside -- there's death there
and the world that he left behind, it ain't change
but they can't see his eyes so they can't take aim
and he's safe...at least until they come and break the walls down,
find him hiding from the lies they build their lives 'round
out there they're just preparin to die
he ain't afraid of dying but he's barely alive
we see what we've become and
we know we can't survive
would we rather be casualties or be alone now?
either we all confront it
or we just close our eyes and hide
til it all just fades away
so now he can't hear the guns bang
its been a year and he ain't seen a blood stain
or heard the cries from the wives of the ones slain
but he ain't sure if he's better for what's changed
he's still a boy he ain't meant to be contained
and there's a void in the balance where love hangs
he learned to vanish but he wants to be untrained
cuz alone is even harder than afraid
so now he goes and starts to listen as the questions in the back of
his mind form
is he really living if there's nothing he'd die for?
is this what we wanted, being alone in his own mind
to hide behind the walls that he built but he won't climb?
it's wrong, but god only knows why
he's looking for the answers that he knows he won't find
cuz he’s still livin life like he only hopes he won't die
but he sees what he's become, so he opens both eyes
he's afraid...he sees them tryin to come and break the walls down
sees the liars and the lies they build their lives 'round
but bein scared ain't a reason to hide
so he lets the walls fall and he feels so alive...
we see what we've become and
we know we can't survive
would we rather be casualties or be alone now?
either we all confront it
or we just close our eyes and hide
til it all just fades away
so we're safe...at least until they come and break our walls down
and find us hiding from the lies they build their lives 'round
out there they're just preparin to die
and we ain't afraid of dying but we're barely alive
or we're afraid...we see them tryin to come and break our walls down
see the liars and the lies they build their lives 'round
but bein scared ain't a reason to hide
so we let the walls fall and we feel so alive...
we see what we've become and
we know we can't survive [we know we can’t survive, we know we can’t survive, but we gon’ stay alive until they come get us]
would we rather be casualties or be alone now?
either we all confront it
or we just close our eyes and hide
til it all just fades away
we see what we've become and
we know we can't survive [we know we can’t survive, we know we can’t survive, but we gon’ stay alive until they come get us]
would we rather be casualties or be alone now?
either we all confront it
or we just close our eyes and hide
til it all just fades away
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4. |
Halfway
04:31
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HALFWAY
I'd trade a bullet scar for another broken heart
So while you're falling to your knees I am standing here with folded arms
counting reasons we should grow apart
even if it means I have to sit here and focus on your only flaw
magnify it til I'm positive you don't belong
let the negativity consume me til the hope is gone
and hope that you don't pull my card
to find out it's my fear of going all in that's keeping me from holding on
see i don't even know what's going on
the only thing i've ever known for sure is what I know is wrong
and that’s a sad enough solo song
so I refuse to get us both involved
cuz love's a journey but that boulevard is full of cars
I roll across and hope to God that I can make a U-Turn
and you learn I’m just limping on my last leg
i'd love to go the distance but can only make it halfway
Wherever we fall I can’t be blamed
Me risk it all again – you must be crazy
I can only meet you halfway
I can only meet you halfway
I’d trade a bullet scar for another broken heart
So while you’re head is in the heavens, I’m just reaching for the lowest star
You’re aiming for the sky, but I believe that it’s supposed to fall
You’re on the front line and I’m retreating ‘fore we go to war
But I won’t be blamed as the reason you’re alone tomorrow
So I’m gonna stay, but I’m keeping up the cold façade
I’ll sit and wait ‘til you leave me on your own accord
then I can say you were the one to go and throw it all away
I know it feels like such a crooked game
the closer that you get to me the more I push away
the more things feel different the more they look the same
the more you ask for more the more I wouldn’t change
Wish it was something that I could explain
but my only enemy is my inner me
and it’s killing me watching you limping on your last leg
trying to go the distance, but I stop you only halfway
Wherever we fall I can’t be blamed
Me risk it all again – you must be crazy
I can only meet you halfway
I can only meet you halfway
they said you can’t kill it if it never lives
you’ll never have to heal if you never face the pain
can’t stop the music if the record never spins
nobody loses if they never play the game
but you’ll never know if it never is
you’ll never be a star if you’re stuck backstage
you never win nothing if it’s never put to risk
and can’t be a man going only halfway
so maybe I should let it go
forget about every single thing I’ve ever known
kick the legs off the pedestal—
let it fall, let it break,
maybe I can put it back together even if its better than it’s been before
I tried to fight your flood, but the levee broke
when it dries I might be walking on a better road—
no U-turns allowed, just a fast lane
you and I can ride down and fly by the halfway
Wherever we fall I can’t be blamed
Me risk it all again – you must be crazy
I can only meet you halfway
I can only meet you halfway
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